maintaining...

I read this quote...

It is not about finding balance...

It is about maintaining it..

Well..things that make you hmmm...

I seek balance in my life everyday. I question my ability to have balance actually everyday too..

At this point in my life I have realized a few things about myself..

*I am dysfunction-ally organized 

*I have a hard time remembering things

*I live for the experience & the people...NOT the list or schedule

*I overbook myself because I don't want to miss out

*I need ALONE time with God and myself everyday

*I need to express myself & be creative

*I am flexible/inconsistent (sometimes) 

* over-thinker

*has expectations..

*hates being surface...I usually go deeper

NOW...I am not putting myself down in these statements of truths. I merely think that these realities are a part of my balance...

I have been really feeling like there is something more for me...

It has been a prayer of mine to really understand what inside me thinks/feels this...

what is it???

In time where I just want balance & contentment...

something is telling me...more more more...

Realizing that as I get older and life changes. It makes me realize that maintaining balance is the same as growing & learning.... it is constant..

With that being said...the more, more, more...I believe is God saying

I am not finished with you yet..

it is only the beginning...

So I guess the key to the real balance in life is God, Prayer..understanding yourself, growth & believing no matter what God isn't finished with you yet ....

lunch break thoughts....

This morning....I thought to myself...I need to get back in to blogging!!! So..here I am!

I am sitting here on my lunch break waiting for my lunch to cool down & there are a ton of things I could say to you all...

Mostly..Life is very blessed & busy!!

I have decided to cut back my hours at work to part-time & man I have to say I instantly feel more refreshed! As a wife, mother & a total "yes girl" ....sometimes I bite off more than I could/should chew! But the good news is that I realize it & this time instead of reacting emotionally. I decided to put it in God's hands...

TRUST...something that I never would have thought I had issues with but I do & trusting God that his plan is the plan is what I am working on...daily, hourly...okay sometimes within minutes..

Whelp...that's all the time I have folks!! Back to WORK!

Inspired

I use to seek approval or acceptance...

then I realized...

if you seek that in other people...

you will never truly give it to yourself...

 WE get caught up in OUR feelings, OUR wants, OUR opinions...

WE FORGET....

WE TAKE FOR GRANTED...

WE DON'T REALIZE...

WE BLAME...

but just like that...

in a moment..

in a breath...

even by accident...

our soul wakes up...

 we look & see the possibilities of true acceptance ..

LOVE
GRACE
MERCY
COMPASSION
UNDERSTANDING
EMPATHY
WISDOM
INTEGRITY
CHARACTER
HONESTY

HOPE
STRENGTH

HONOR

LOYALTY

KINDNESS

PASSION

a journey of discovery...

of realization...

to be inspired...

one day at a time...

for it is a series of moments that can make life change forever...

Mother Teresa was just a woman....who decided to live her life extraordinarily by not letting the world take it over...instead she let GOD take over & use her to show GOD to world....

....

Prayer

So many times...I have started writing a new blog to only not finish because I wasn't feeling inspired. The last couple of months have been full of change and just BUSY. Change would be me starting a FULL time job & BUSY would be 3 kiddos + husband who has been working a ton of overtime! 

I never want to sound like I am complaining because it is not that...Life is good just A LOT right now. 

Going back to FULL time is what I wanted...right??? I actually have NO clue what I want. WHICH is the problem...I pray & pray about contentment & serenity in life daily. I felt like God opened a door..& I trust that he will work it all out. I try not to look back...just move forward. I really do love my job..it suits me really great & I can grow in it (which is really awesome). But the balance between being a great mommy & full time employee plus the many other hats I where is a juggling act. All you working mommy's know what I am saying...

I have been fortunate to not have to work full time for many years. I always had a longing to work though..I don't know if it is because my mother is a career women/grandmother etc. Or that I have always dreamed of doing something...at times those dreams were starting my own business (never making it past the ground floor), going back to school (never being able to completely focus on it), being a successful career woman ( I have been fortunate to be inspired by many great ones). 

Justin & I have goals which I think is awesome & really important...

This last month has been packed full of events & there isn't really an end in sight until October but I know that this is a season of my life where I have to really work on organizing, planning, being totally on the ball & just getting my life in a routine. Being humble with myself & continuing to really grow in this role as working mommy. 

I would like to ask for some prayer just in that God guide me in my journey & strength to really challenge myself to better myself in life. Also for wisdom with choices & relationships. 

Thank you all who read this...hopefully I will be better about posting things then I have been (fingers crossed)!

Eating Al Fresco

Spring was in the air today!!

It was a beautiful afternoon & evening. 

One thing I love to do is eat outside...

Maybe it is the fresh air or just a change of scenery but it makes my heart happy! 

So...tonight the kids & I dined outside. 

So my suggestion to you would be on the next nice day...bring your meal outside. 

Whether it is coffee in the morning, a picnic lunch or dinner on the deck. Maybe it was because today was the 1st day we have dined outside this year... that made me miss it so much but it is something that I just really enjoy about Spring & Summer!!

Easter Sunrise 2012

On the way to the beach..

Almost there..

Made it

Simply Amazing..

John 3:16

This was our 2nd year waking up super early to watch the sunrise of Easter. I love this tradition & there is something about being outside in the early morning that really just speaks to my soul.

I hope you all had a wonderful Easter with family & friends. And that it was a day of reflection on how much God loves us!!

MARCH...to your own beat!

March has been a busy month..

Full of Birthdays

FUN

Change...LOTS of Change

Goals

A little bit of Sunshine 

& 

LOVE lots of LOVE...

Birthday Girls!!

Reflecting on the days behind me & excited for the days ahead of me...That is the state mind I am in right at this moment. 

I am over thinker & sensitive...always have been. I was the queen of 2nd guessing myself and not believe in myself. For some reason something hit me this month like BAM...and all of sudden PEACE came over me! It was like God was putting his hands on me telling me...you know it is time to let that part of you go & become who you were made to be :0) I am not saying that I magically changed forever. I will probably still struggle with stuff from time to time. I guess I feel like no matter what God has got my back because I allow him to live inside of me. I have really been in deep thought about the Holy Spirit & how that all works/means to me. With digging deeper in this...I think I have gained the confidence in Christ..I needed! 

SO...if you are ready...I really encourage you to get to know the Holy Spirit that lives inside of you :0)