When you realize something, sometimes you don't understand why or how???
Sometimes you need to pray hard & dig deep...to find clarity!
My whole life I have felt an emptiness...
I have tried to fill it with people, activities, rebelling, stuffing it or just plan ignoring it.
Funny thing that emptiness...... that void...... always surfaces...ALWAYS
I find myself doubting things, people...I have felt hurt, lost, alone all because of this.
I believe that God has open my heart to see what that emptiness really is...
In this journey the last couple of weeks...
I have dug the past up..& laid it its finally resting place with God.
I have discovered a trueness inside that I am not going to apologize for.
I have decided that I want joy & peace in my life...the people in it should reflect that as well.
I have so many blessings & amazing people in my life, that I want to not have an emptiness in enjoying them!
I have realized that we all have ugliness inside of us, it is our sinful nature as humans but God gives us grace, love & is good, faithful, true..... our hope.
It is not always easy to work on yourself...the inside....God knows all the little details & for me that means, I can't hide anything from him so I better deal with it...
In this journey the last couple of weeks...
I have dug the past up..& laid it its finally resting place with God.
I have discovered a trueness inside that I am not going to apologize for.
I have decided that I want joy & peace in my life...the people in it should reflect that as well.
I have so many blessings & amazing people in my life, that I want to not have an emptiness in enjoying them!
I have realized that we all have ugliness inside of us, it is our sinful nature as humans but God gives us grace, love & is good, faithful, true..... our hope.
It is not always easy to work on yourself...the inside....God knows all the little details & for me that means, I can't hide anything from him so I better deal with it...
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